Life has been so full of experiences I
have not had time to write anything, make bracelets, or even just take a minute
to sit down and review what the last two months have been for me and my
family.
As always, when my invitation to write
starts knocking on my door, I get the title first. Last week “Age and Stage” was the title. It would come to me in the morning and I
would think to myself, “maybe as you sip your first cup of coffee this title can
be addressed.” Well, it happened to be on
Tuesday night around 9:45pm as I snuggled into my favorite time of the day, in
bed wearing my comfy PJ’s and starting to grab a book for some much needed
escape time. As I my head hit the pillow and I reached to turn on my bedside lamp, the urge
to write did not lightly knock on my door, it came barreling down on me and
said, “NOW.” I was not about to get out
of bed for my computer or a pad of paper. For the first time ever I just grabbed my phone, opened up a new email on
my screen and started typing. Yes, I was
crushing it on my cell phone key pad. The words were flying from my tired fingers onto my phone screen. These were words that had to be put on
paper. They were telling my story that I
had been logging over that last few months. All of this had been stirring somewhere in my psyche and was just
bursting to get out.
As I tapped away on my phone, my sweet
husband looked over at me and said, “really, what in the world are you
doing?” He still says, “I cannot believe
you were writing on the phone the other night.”
I want to share with you what my phone was holding for me. It is real, it is honest. It is probably more personal than I usually
share. But, Emily told me this…“I think
it’s important to share the realness and healing. Let me know and I can post.” For all of you that know Emily, you know that
she is the boss of anything Healing Knots.
So here we go….
On Tue, Apr 4, 2017 at 10:11 PM, Corinne Cargnoni
<cpc64@austin.rr.com> wrote:
Age and Stage!
So I have been saying this for years. And maybe, just maybe I get
to move to another stage. I have permission to tell the truth. That is huge! I
guess we all get to decide if we want to tell the truth everyday of our life.
But, if telling the truth is telling someone else's truth, it is different. So I
was given permission to tell my truth and reveal another person's story. That
is a big step in healing by the way. Secrets and silence are always the sign of
sickness or dysfunction. So here comes a big fat slice of healing. My precious
boy is 23 years old and he just invited healing and recovery into his life. Our
whole family is breathing a sigh of relief.
We lost him for about 8 years to drugs and alcohol. We fought it hard. We drug
tested, grounded him, sent him to counseling. We shut his world down - but it
did not save him. So all of us watched his life deteriorate. He flunked out of
college, he was fired, arrested, homeless, friendless, hopeless, and
depressed. We loved him with boundaries
and it was not enough. We were losing the fight. One summer he decided he would
move to Colorado with a friend. I drove him to the Greyhound bus station. It
was so sad. He felt so lost. “Maybe Colorado would work, we thought. What a break
to not have to watch him struggle and suffer. My daughter said with tears in
her eyes, “He feels like a stranger in our house.”
Fast forward...he is now 7 months sober and has a new lease on life. He
understands drugs and alcohol destroyed his soul. He is about to be out of
treatment and in a sober home. He said I could tell his story. I can't tell his
story. He is the only one that can tell his story. He wears his bracelet and he
says he really understands Healing Knots. He gives bracelets to friends in
recovery and tells me they value them. We have a connection and I love him so
much. I know he has been tortured. We have all been tortured. It is time that
his story starts to shine.
Mitchell, go live your story. And maybe one day you will share this journey and
it will have a happy ending. We all need a happy ending. I love you and I love
that you wear your bracelet! Make us proud! Go shine!
I am so proud of you!
Love,
Mom
Sent from my iPhone
I emailed this to Mitchell – his response is below.
From: Mitchell Cargnoni
<mitchellcargnoni@gmail.com>
Date: April 5, 2017 at 8:24:41 PM CDT
To: Corinne Cargnoni <cpc64@austin.rr.com>
Subject: Re: Age and stage
Mom,
I like it a lot. And the relief is real. I love you so much.
Mitch
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Thank you all for caring and loving us through this time in our family. We are happy to announce we are in a new age and stage!!
Godspeed and may healing be the theme for this wonderful season of Spring!
